I Envy The Dead.

I envy the dead

Gathering debts and still being mailed my next bill

Second guessing my position in every single deal

While I look for ways for my soul to heal

So, I envy the dead.

I envy the dead

I hate the long days and short nights

The constant mental battles just so I get to pay tithes

Bothered about the decisions I make being right

And about a future that may never see the light

So, I envy the dead.

I envy the dead

I hate that I have to get old

With each passing day, burdened with more secrets to withhold

Every stare feels like judgment of me against the roads rode

In the end, I am only truly seen when my body is decomposed.

So, I envy the dead.

I envy the dead

I never seem to be able to handle any loss

Many times, I wish I could outsource

Life just takes and takes till it empties your purse

Then a clergy explains “That’s why Jesus died on the cross”

So, I envy the dead.

I envy the dead

I really enjoy sleeping

That is the only time the voices in my head are not in season

Close my eyes, and alas, the thoughts begin sinking

Just to open my eyes again to realize, that to the world, nothing was missing

So, I envy the dead.

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